Going Through Another Stage in Life

We're planning for a natural birth but at 38weeks, doctor explained to us that Eva is weighing almost 3.5kg and the diameter of the head is around 9.7cm! Our doctor advised us to have an induction, but i heard that to inducing is double the pain!! So we said no and opt for the natural - altho doctor did mentioned that the percentage of giving birth naturally is quite low. : (

March 1, 08 @ 9.30am - Contraction Begins! We rushed to the hospital, the nurses put me on the this thing called CTG (Cardiotocograph) for monitoring baby's heart. After an hour of monitoring, the doctor came in and checked. And guess what?

FALSE ALARM!! (wtf?)

March 2, 08 @ 9pm - The contractions felt stronger, but we didnt wanna go to the hospital cos there's no sign of "true" labour just yet. Imagine if we go again, sure kena pay another extra hundreds - just for FALSE LABOUR?? No way man.. so we waited, in pain.. *sobz* (around midnight we went to Kg. Baru for nasi lemak. hehhe)


March 4, 08 @ 8am - Something's telling me that this is it. Although there's no "signs"  yet but somehow i knew.. so we got ready and head to the hospital.

930am - True enough and finally, I'm in labour!! Yeay!

11am - I was being sent to the labour room, there, the nurses put me on drips, and then, half and hour later, they break my water bag! After a while, they gimme this jab and it makes me dizzy, I was indeed, flying in my dreamworld.. heh!

1pm - Doctor came in, checked and said I was on 4cm but not really dilated.. So if by 6pm and there's no progress, she'll wanna do a C-Section. *damn!!*

4pm - The pain was unbearable!! I was on the gas and it doesnt help AT ALL!!! The nurses checked on me again and u know what she said? "Girl, your still at 4cm Lah!" And I was like, "huh?! You must be kidding man!!" So I discussed with darlingFazral, and we agreed to go for C-Sec since nothing can guarantee us that the baby will come by 6pm. : (

eva & daddy - 2nd day
going home!

eva in her bassinet - first night at home (read: nightmare for us!)

being mommy!

finally! our lil bundle of joy is here!

world, let's welcome Eva Xafira Elme.




yes, i admit that i've been very lazy to update this blog (eversince my wedding!) but i guess that it's time to "show-off" what god have created for us.. =)

unconditional love

something from mom..

when you were born,
i held you in my arms
and just kept smiling at you..
you always smiled back
your big eyes wide open, full of love..
you were such a beautiful
good, sweet baby..
now as i watch you grow up
and become your own person,
i look at you
your laughter, your happiness
your simplicity..
and i want to tell you that i am so proud of you
and i dearly love you..

more than important

mom sent a package back about 2 weeks ago but got stuck in the custom office. got denise to collect it and got taxed for 130bucks! and in this package i found something that is far more important than the little coach-coin-holder-with-key-chain' that mom gave. here it is...

Know this my children,
As a parent, there is not a more genuine or important message I have to offer…

I love you and have always loved you. I have tried to show you by my words and actions this love, but realize I may have fallen short of this goal at times.

To the best of my ability, with the work of my body, the limits of my mind, and the strength of my soul, I have tried to give you love, shelter and food. I have tried to give you as much of my time as possible in this hectic, hurried world. I have tried to give you fun and laughter.. I have tried to give you the safety and protection you have a right to and I have an obligation to give. I have tried to let you know about life’s unpleasantries without scaring you too much. I have tried to give you as much trust as possible in an apparently untrusting world.

In all my breaths, my true intention has never been to hurt you or bring you any unnecessary pain. I have tried to be to you the best parent I could with the tools given to me. I want you to know that for any times that I have hurt you, disappointed you, or let you down, knowingly or unknowingly, I am sorry. I am sorry for my shortcomings and the mistakes I made that caused you any pain. For this I ask your forgiveness, only when and if you are willing to give it.

Thank you for the pleasures and treasures you have given me, both deserved and not. There has never been anything you have done that has taken away my unconditional love for you. always and now, in my eyes, heart and soul, you are to me the most beautiful bud, the loveliest bloom, and the most perfect flower.

I have loved you from the day you were born… I love you with every breath you take… I will love you… forever.

Well, my children, hopefully all of you understand how I feel when I bought this card. There are more to be said than these but I know time will prove everthing. ~steven h. waller~

Lot’s of love,
Mum


[music on air]
deep inside, incubus

[current mood]
numb

[quote of the day]
I have loved you from the day you were born… I love you with every breath you take… I will love you… forever.

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dreamland