how soon is now?

christmas is over, but donut's pressie is STILL with me!! hmph!

these days, celebrating christmas, new year, cny or any other festive seasons, arent the same anymore.. it wasnt the same since 5 years ago actually. werent the same since mum left.. come to think of her, celebrating alone, it must be heart-aching.. i wonder when will i see her again, hopefully soon, but how soon is soon? *gotta work extra hard then.. *

year is coming to an end, and as each year passes by, i would say.. 'time really flies!' and what have i done so far? dunno.. eventho i felt happier now, working in production especially, i got more "time" for myself, can eat a proper lunch and dinner now, but still not enough time for my family.. everyday, i will remind myself that i should see dad more, talk more to gramma and grampa, spend more time with sis and bro, but end up.. none. yes, may be new year's resolution will be this. =)

[music on air]
time is running out - muse

[current mood]
-

[quote of the day]
there's nothing good or bad, only thinking makes it so.

[next station]
pick up elme from work and go straight home.

more than important

mom sent a package back about 2 weeks ago but got stuck in the custom office. got denise to collect it and got taxed for 130bucks! and in this package i found something that is far more important than the little coach-coin-holder-with-key-chain' that mom gave. here it is...

Know this my children,
As a parent, there is not a more genuine or important message I have to offer…

I love you and have always loved you. I have tried to show you by my words and actions this love, but realize I may have fallen short of this goal at times.

To the best of my ability, with the work of my body, the limits of my mind, and the strength of my soul, I have tried to give you love, shelter and food. I have tried to give you as much of my time as possible in this hectic, hurried world. I have tried to give you fun and laughter.. I have tried to give you the safety and protection you have a right to and I have an obligation to give. I have tried to let you know about life’s unpleasantries without scaring you too much. I have tried to give you as much trust as possible in an apparently untrusting world.

In all my breaths, my true intention has never been to hurt you or bring you any unnecessary pain. I have tried to be to you the best parent I could with the tools given to me. I want you to know that for any times that I have hurt you, disappointed you, or let you down, knowingly or unknowingly, I am sorry. I am sorry for my shortcomings and the mistakes I made that caused you any pain. For this I ask your forgiveness, only when and if you are willing to give it.

Thank you for the pleasures and treasures you have given me, both deserved and not. There has never been anything you have done that has taken away my unconditional love for you. always and now, in my eyes, heart and soul, you are to me the most beautiful bud, the loveliest bloom, and the most perfect flower.

I have loved you from the day you were born… I love you with every breath you take… I will love you… forever.

Well, my children, hopefully all of you understand how I feel when I bought this card. There are more to be said than these but I know time will prove everthing. ~steven h. waller~

Lot’s of love,
Mum


[music on air]
deep inside, incubus

[current mood]
numb

[quote of the day]
I have loved you from the day you were born… I love you with every breath you take… I will love you… forever.

[next station]
dreamland